vacation writings

  Is this the MOST BEAUTIFUL village in England?! - Cotswolds Tour I am really amazed at England's everything. I love its history, I love its culture, I love its places, I love its houses, people's accent,  I love its people and It's been like a dream to be there and know Scotland, the big ben, and other interesting kinds of stuff. I wish I could be there at least to get immersed in the culture. The first thing that captivated me was history. It was about Elizabeth, Henry VII, the wars against France, the Virginia colonies. To be honest, they are quite smart and they have always been a strong country.  I love watching England's tours. This is my speaking in 2020, I wish I could read this when I live in England.

how i stopped hating myself & how you can too I think we all need someone to cheer us up and to make us feel better about ourselves. We do not know how people feel about themselves and it is not fair to say bad things about the physical appearence on the spot.

🌿 7 Mindset Habits That Changed My Life | Self Care I am not my thoughts. that is really true and it has been something that has happened to me because sometime I let my thoughts control me. My "bad" thoughts such as failure, not being good enough, ugliness, loneliness and so on. I start crying and thinking I m not god enough for ding things and the only thing I can think of is just disappearing for a while. Sometimes I only wish i can get rid of that fucking feeling that kills myself inside. To be honest, right now, there are less than 5 days left to start studying and I am not excited about it and that is killing me because if I am not keen then what should I do? leave school? what should I do? I dont know how to get motivated, I am thinking about the sujects and those are ok but I dnt know maybe the same fucking thing as the last semester. Nothing to be excited about. I think I need to wait but I don't want to let me down Keep focus on the present is very import...

Reading Strangers' Most Sorrowful Moments I have a lot of insecurities that don't allow me to do things that I want to for instance clothes I want to wear but because of the social discrimination. I feel like I set mental boundaries by thinking tht everyone will judge me. I know it is not that way but I also know people are mean and they can say awful things. Most of the sorrowful moments are those ones that reflect insecurities and weak people that allow people to control them. I have not allowed me to get exposed to the world, i mean, to the bad and good things. I now I have had those sorrowful moments but most of them are inside my head killing me.   Song for my mood:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-YlxofoOnuY

What Is Kafkaesque? - The 'Philosophy' of Franz Kafka I think and well in the video it is said we all have experienced Kafkaesque signs. We all have been staying up all night trying to figure out what is this shit  and it is all a bummer. I have read metamorphosis which is a really enjoyable book and to be honest it was one of the first books I've felt connected with. I was amazed by his life as  well. I think I can feel him, i mean, I can understand how he felt like, the sorrow of his soul and trying to make an impact in the world but berely did he. He died thinking he was unbearable and useless but the real and i would say It can be the best thing is that he was really smart and lit.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WiVHSRY2I5Y&list=WL&index=6 "no more melting". I think we have really deep in this diea of buying and buying things, I mean the more you have the better and cooler you are, dunno. My idea is that we are so messed up with many stuffs around and we are used to it that we want more and more. To be honest I strongly like to but clothes and I wind up wearing the same old jeans or shirts. My point to stand out is that we should refrain from buying things that may not be indispensable in our lives. Live now and wear those jeans or dresses that you always daubt about.