The power of introverts | Susan Cain

The power of introverts | Susan Cain
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I am 20 year old girl and I do not even know what it is in my suitcase. I have not had way too many experiences because I have deny myself to go out and face the REAL world. It has been something that has been affected noone but me. I say to myself " why are you too afraid of confront people, to say NO, to say the things I think, to express myself freely. Since I can remember I have been the girl who does not speak that much, who is always quiet and just sees other people.

Sometimes i just want to get out of my comfort zone and do things that I have always wanted to do but I am too afraid of doing it.

WHY?
Why am I afraid of saying my opinion? This is kind of fun 'cause I see people happily and frendly talking to new people, laughing and saying thins to each and just creating this "RAPPORT". That is actually very nice  but I just don't get it.

"I GET LOST IN THE SORROW OF MY SOUL". SOMETIMES, JUST SOMETIMES MY SOUL CRY SO DEEP THAT NOBODY CAN HEAR IT BUT JUST ME SKIN AND IT REALLY HURTS.


To be honest I can just connect with a very few amount of people who I really feel myself, who I can say all the things to come up and cross to my mind without worring "What would they think about my?

My low self-esteem has "obviously" forced me to keep like that and I have targeted in the  substandar behaviour.

To be honest, I feel outgoing people have it much easier than introverted because they just match in any place or sitatution.

Since I started  going to University I changed a little. I do not know why but I really feel quite comfortable speking in English than "obviously" Spanish. Maybe my mind has just created boundaries in my first language.

What would you say about my situation?

BTW, the video was interesting and make me feel that I am worthy of CARE 'cause nothing is wrong with ME.